The Note I Need to Read at Midnight

I'm caring for my [Relationship] [Initials] ([Their Diagnosis]) and I keep getting hit by [The Feeling]. The specific thing I beat myself up about: [The Thing]. What I actually do for them every week: [What i do]. Who else knows how hard this is: [Who Knows]. This is not therapy and I'm not asking you to fix me. Help me: 1) write a one-page note from the clear-headed version of me to the 2 a.m. version — honest, specific, no fake cheer, 2) list the facts of what I actually do, in plain numbers, so I can read them instead of the story in my head, 3) give me one sentence that separates what the disease is doing from what I'm doing, 4) give me the name of the thing I'm feeling, if there's a word for it that caregivers use, so I know I'm not the only one, 5) end with the one small thing I'm allowed to do tomorrow that's just for me. If I sound like I'm in real trouble — hopeless for weeks, not just tired — say so plainly and tell me to talk to a person.